Trois fois rien.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hier soir
Je rejoins Alex, d\u00e9j\u00e0 couch\u00e9. C\u2019\u00e9tait sa journ\u00e9e d\u2019anniversaire. Elle fut pour moi douce et agr\u00e9able. Je suppose qu\u2019il a lui aussi appr\u00e9ci\u00e9.
En fin de journ\u00e9e nous sommes tous all\u00e9s \u00e0 la plage. Je me suis lanc\u00e9e dans une longue s\u00e9ance de Yoga. Alex \u00e9tait assis \u00e0 c\u00f4t\u00e9. Il regardait la mer et semblait plut\u00f4t paisible. \u00c7a a dur\u00e9 environ une heure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
En me glissant dans le lit ce soir l\u00e0, un peu apr\u00e8s lui, je lui demande \u00e0 quoi il pensait sur la plage.
Pas de r\u00e9ponse.
\u2014\u00a0Tu dors\u2009?
\u2014\u00a0Non.
J\u2019insiste un peu. J\u2019aimerais savoir quels genres de pens\u00e9e, de pr\u00e9occupation ou occupation le traversent en ce moment. Si c\u2019\u00e9tait une belle journ\u00e9e pour lui.
Silence.
\u2014\u00a0Tu dors\u2009?
\u2014\u00a0Non.
\u2014\u00a0Ah, je lui demande le sujet de ses r\u00e9flexions ?
Silence.
J\u2019attends.
Silence.
Je lui demande si c\u2019est trop personnel, en sachant au fond de moi que ce n\u2019est pas \u00e7a qui l\u2019emp\u00eache de parler.
\u2014\u00a0Non
Je le provoque gentiment
\u2014\u00a0Peut \u00eatre tu te disais\u00a0: mais pourquoi je suis venu avec eux, ils m\u2019ennuient avec leur sport et leur yoga. J\u2019aurais d\u00fb les attendre au bateau je serai peinard. J\u2019aurais pu me mater un film et me faire une petite branlette.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pr\u00eacher le faux pour connaitre le vrai. J\u2019avoue \u00e7a ne marche jamais. Je peux raconter absolument n\u2019importe quelle connerie, il ne me contredira jamais au de la d\u2019un simple : Trois fois rien. Hier soirJe rejoins Alex, d\u00e9j\u00e0 couch\u00e9. C\u2019\u00e9tait sa journ\u00e9e d\u2019anniversaire. Elle fut pour moi douce et agr\u00e9able. Je suppose qu\u2019il a lui aussi appr\u00e9ci\u00e9.En fin de journ\u00e9e nous sommes tous all\u00e9s \u00e0 la plage. Je me suis lanc\u00e9e dans une longue s\u00e9ance de Yoga. Alex \u00e9tait assis \u00e0 c\u00f4t\u00e9. Il regardait la […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":287,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"ocean_post_layout":"","ocean_both_sidebars_style":"","ocean_both_sidebars_content_width":0,"ocean_both_sidebars_sidebars_width":0,"ocean_sidebar":"","ocean_second_sidebar":"","ocean_disable_margins":"enable","ocean_add_body_class":"","ocean_shortcode_before_top_bar":"","ocean_shortcode_after_top_bar":"","ocean_shortcode_before_header":"","ocean_shortcode_after_header":"","ocean_has_shortcode":"","ocean_shortcode_after_title":"","ocean_shortcode_before_footer_widgets":"","ocean_shortcode_after_footer_widgets":"","ocean_shortcode_before_footer_bottom":"","ocean_shortcode_after_footer_bottom":"","ocean_display_top_bar":"default","ocean_display_header":"default","ocean_header_style":"","ocean_center_header_left_menu":"","ocean_custom_header_template":"","ocean_custom_logo":0,"ocean_custom_retina_logo":0,"ocean_custom_logo_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_tablet_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_mobile_max_width":0,"ocean_custom_logo_max_height":0,"ocean_custom_logo_tablet_max_height":0,"ocean_custom_logo_mobile_max_height":0,"ocean_header_custom_menu":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_family":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_subset":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_size":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_font_size_unit":"px","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight_tablet":"","ocean_menu_typo_font_weight_mobile":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform_tablet":"","ocean_menu_typo_transform_mobile":"","ocean_menu_typo_line_height":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_line_height_unit":"","ocean_menu_typo_spacing":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_tablet":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_mobile":0,"ocean_menu_typo_spacing_unit":"","ocean_menu_link_color":"","ocean_menu_link_color_hover":"","ocean_menu_link_color_active":"","ocean_menu_link_background":"","ocean_menu_link_hover_background":"","ocean_menu_link_active_background":"","ocean_menu_social_links_bg":"","ocean_menu_social_hover_links_bg":"","ocean_menu_social_links_color":"","ocean_menu_social_hover_links_color":"","ocean_disable_title":"default","ocean_disable_heading":"default","ocean_post_title":"","ocean_post_subheading":"","ocean_post_title_style":"","ocean_post_title_background_color":"","ocean_post_title_background":0,"ocean_post_title_bg_image_position":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_attachment":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_repeat":"","ocean_post_title_bg_image_size":"","ocean_post_title_height":0,"ocean_post_title_bg_overlay":0.5,"ocean_post_title_bg_overlay_color":"","ocean_disable_breadcrumbs":"default","ocean_breadcrumbs_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_separator_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_links_color":"","ocean_breadcrumbs_links_hover_color":"","ocean_display_footer_widgets":"default","ocean_display_footer_bottom":"default","ocean_custom_footer_template":"","ocean_post_oembed":"","ocean_post_self_hosted_media":"","ocean_post_video_embed":"","ocean_link_format":"","ocean_link_format_target":"self","ocean_quote_format":"","ocean_quote_format_link":"post","ocean_gallery_link_images":"on","ocean_gallery_id":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[14,22,26,7],"class_list":["post-1303","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-non-classe","tag-communication","tag-conversation","tag-silence","tag-solitude","entry","has-media"],"yoast_head":"\n
<\/em>\u2014 Non
\u2014 Tu as un exemple d\u2019id\u00e9e que tu as eu\u2009?
Silence.
Silence.
Silence.
Je me demande s\u2019il s\u2019est endormi.
\u2014 Tu dors\u2009?
\u2014 Non
\u2014 Tu veux dormir\u2009?
\u2014 Non.
\u2014 Tu veux que j\u2019arr\u00eate avec mes questions\u2009?
\u2014 Non.
\u2014 Ah\u2026
Silence.
Je me sens impuissante, seule. J\u2019ai d\u00e9j\u00e0 v\u00e9cu cette sc\u00e8ne tellement de fois.
Et comme une lame de fond, je sens une grande tristesse m\u2019envahir. Je me l\u00e8ve. Il me demande si je suis en col\u00e8re. Non, triste et seule. Je sais que je ne vais pas pouvoir me rendormir. Je mesure \u00e0 quel point c\u2019est d\u00e9risoire et stupide. Je vais regarder un film. Je dors tr\u00e8s mal cette nuit-l\u00e0.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"